Tribute to my brother Christopher Jean
Died 01/25/11

You’re dead!
six months and a funeral later
And now I realize you’re gone.
I have been holding on to 'good-bye' and 'I will miss you' for too long,
Just so you would remain human.
You’re dead!
I keep seeing parts of you in pictures
Of a life I did not know so maybe you’re not gone_
Oh please sorrow,
Please,
let me live my today without you near me-
Why are your lights and signs all pointed at my brothers grave
as if I was a dumb animal ?

'He is dead!'
Yet, i want to run to your heaped earth
and dig my nails into the ground,
file down my flesh
and make the ground fertile again with my blood.
I know your skin has gone away by now
-thawed into the open jaws of a cycle.
i imagine you laying there just sculptured porcelain bones
underneath bits of Grey and weathered muscles-
waiting to be eaten.
you’re dead-
I no longer care what I find
I just need to say good-bye.
You are dead,
six months now and one good-bye later.

By: A.J aka Lithium